Lately..

Life's funny when you think about it.. We spend all this money, time, frustration, and time on our futures here. Our future careers, our future family, the retirement, just everything that's going happen in the short years we have been allowed here on earth.

I mean lately I've been thinking a lot about how on Saturday we were suppose to die. It's funny to think about... These people went around buying billboards and touring to tell everyone to REPENT because the rapture was going to happen... Something our country, our world, would view as 'extreme.' when really we should be doing this. Maybe not to the extent they did for every one of us. Yet, we should be informing people of whats to come. we should be aware that it could happen this very second and we should not know, because on GOD does. Not even the son knows. I know some of you are going ' your being extreme Cassandra' but do we not see that THESE ARE EXTREME PLACES WE ARE TALKING ABOUT?!? And it's not just for a few weeks. it's for ETERNITY!

Lately I've been thinking about the future. I'm confused to what to go into. Something I use to be so freaking' strict about. I needed to know what was to happen next. Where I was going. I had a plan set out. It was dead set... But I find myself not caring now. Not necessary in a bad way, just in a way that I know God will push me towards where he wants me to go. Sometimes I think my best plan would to just jump in a fan and go. Go where I felt him wanting me to go. Spend my time thinking about him. Talking about him. talking TO him.

Lately I've also felt myself drifting from my friends. I mean it killed for a little while but not thinking about it, drifting from them, has set my mind on God who I know is right beside me. Suddenly loosing them didn't scare me so much...

Lately I've been thinking about eternal life. Where would I be. Would I necessary be in heaven. I've come so far, but not as far as I want to be, nor as far I feel he wants me to be. If you've ever read the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan, you'll know what I mean when I say I would be classified as a lukewarm christian. Yet I don't want to be one. Lately I've been striving not to be. I don't want to be that example to the people in the world. I don't want to claim to be a christian, but not differ from the atheists on the world...

Lately I've been thinking about life... But my life may not be what you think it is. My life is God. My lifeline is the bible. I'm the a tree,still growing. As I grow, my roots search deeper in deeper for their source of life... I search deeper and deeper into my source of love.

Lately, I've been thinking about my journey. About how God could care less about what I do more he focuses on who I am. God cares more about the journey than me actually reaching point B.

And lately I've been thinking, it's time I trust in God's strength. To try my journey without my friends around to catch me when I fall.. Fellowship is great don't get me wrong... I just, I want most of my time to be spent on God now. I want to get to heaven someday and have it been like I'm seeing my best friend again. Not just meeting someone I barely know, yet do... If you know what I mean?

So yeah, lately... I've been thinking life's kinda weird... weird in the sense most of us consider our life our life, our life... when really god should be our life if you as me...