Monday, December 13, 2010
Honestly.
im so so so so so tired of having to put this smile on my face... "you're a christian now you cant be upset" " you have nothing to be upset about" "just suck it up" "your just seeking attention" JUST SHUT UP. I walk through the hallways for you with a smile on my face, I post 'more upbeat' status' for you so you dont think im going to kill myself... I cry at night because im SO tired of having to pretend because i dont have the 'right' to be upset. Im so tired of hearing that I cant cry over something that happened 4 years ago or even 2 weeks ago. Im not seeking attention, Im just a scared little girl who wishes she didnt have to be someone else for her 'friends'
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You don't need to pretend. Pretending and being a Christian are never the same.
ReplyDeleteI don't want you to pretend, but seeing you sad last night made me worried for you. I saw you surrounded by people but you looked alone. I'm sorry you feel like this.
I'm not going to pretend to understand the way you feel. Just know I'm praying for you. I don't want you to be sad, but I don't want happy to be work for you.